I’ve been on a journey the past few years. It all started with our move. I guess it kind of threw me for a loop. Up until that point, I was a pretty regular blogger and freelance graphic designer. Wow, what a couple of years can do. I totally neglected this blog. Except to change the name, layout, logo, focus, etc. I couldn’t make myself sit down to write a post. I think in some ways I forgot who I was.
Here’s the back story. When my husband and I decided to run a marathon, we were both about 30-40 pounds heavier than we are now. We thought that training and running a marathon would be the answer to all our health woes. We learned a lot by that effort, but real lasting health and weightloss still eluded us.
Can I admit something? My Sister-in-law ran the race with us and her husband captured some images of us in action. Later, she posted some photos online and when I saw them, my heart sunk. I cried and cried. I felt so horrible, I begged her to take them down. In my mind I thought “How can someone who looks like that train for and finish a full marathon?” It didn’t make sense to me. I was heartbroken and I decided that maybe it was time to be done with “diets” and just be. I bought some books on healing from diet addictions and set out to find a way to heal.
Around this same time, before our big race, I had been introduced to essential oils by a few friends. I thought they were a little strange for getting involved with the dreaded “network marketing” company. But I went to a class anyway and ended up loving what I heard and tried and bought a kit for our family. Little did I know that would put us on a trajectory that I never would have imagined.
As I began to research what my new little toys could do, I started learning more and more about nutrition and holistic health. I was fascinated by what I was beginning to understand. All that time I thought I was eating healthy, I wasn’t. All that effort to not eat, to save calories, to skip meals, only led to heartache and further struggles.
Little by little, my whole house became healthier, simpler, and happier. Our eating habits changed completely, our healthcare changed completely, the way we clean and take care of our home changed completely. Both my husband and I were finally able to release a lot of the extra pounds holding us back. I even became a licensed Zumba instructor and teach 3 times a week! Crazy!
I went from having pain when I got up in the morning with creaky knees & sore feet to feeling like I was 10 years younger. My husband was able to stop relying on daily doses of multiple prescriptions and over-the-counter drugs. But, we changed. And people noticed. Are we 100% where we want to be? No. Do we still have things that we feel bad and criticize about ourselves. Absolutely. I’ve learned that progress is better than perfection and to be patient with the progress.
Funny thing happens with you have something that has changed your life so dramatically, you start to tell people about it. This led me down the dreaded network marking path. Haha! I can laugh about it now but I hated this business model. I did not want to do this. I went to school for and have a degree in design. Why in the world would I want a job in a network marketing company?
But, I continued to share our successes with essential oils to anyone who would listen. I hate to see someone with something I could help them with, and not share what I have. So I just kept having classes and teaching what I was learning. Crazy story, my network marketing business started to send me real checks. Real money. Okay, maybe this business model isn’t so bad after all.
That’s how I went from designer to essential oil teacher. I have neglected this blog because I saw these two sides of myself as separate. “DON’T CROSS THE STREAMS!” Ha. Ha. My oil business- has been steadily growing and now I can truly say I LOVE it. I’ve met some wonderful people through this business and I am excited to keep going.
There’s been a hole in me. A HUGE part of my life was cut out. With the move and then all the sharing, teaching, building, and growing of my other business I lost the part of me that makes my heart sing. I have been so busy, I’ve had to cut my design work. My time in the studio went from creating to coaching. And I need that part back.
I tried multiple times to make a logo, name, something that represented my new life. If you’ve been here lately, you’ve seen LOTS of different blog names. I hated all of them. I couldn’t every really blog or write because I really wasn’t connected to what I was creating. I took down my gallery of past work because it was so stale and stagnant to me. I couldn’t stand to look at it anymore. Even the rotating photos on my main page kind of bug me. Haha. But- I really don’t have anything new to replace them with yet, so they will stay for now.
I’ve signed up for some art/design classes this year. I have an AWESOME studio in the making (photos to come later but there’s a sneak peak on my Instagram feed), and I’m giving myself permission to make bad art. I feel really out of practice and really critical of what I can do now. But I don’t care anymore. I’m going to be posting what I’m doing. The good, bad, ugly, and crazy. I feel more spiritually connected when I have art in my life and I’m looking forward to having that back. Progress over perfection. Patience with the progress. That’s my new mantra for art now too.
I kept my old blog name and url and i’m excited to go back to that. It’s all under one roof now so you’ll get there going to themodernhive.com directly or heathercarson.net/themodernhive. I’ll be keeping up with my oil blog iheartoils.com too. But from now on, this is my place to share the happenings of my hive. A place where I can recored successes, laugh at myself, share mistakes, my vintage finds, my art, my oils, my thoughts of food and fitness. All of it.
Phew. That was a long time coming and it felt great!